Am I completely insane, please answer?

Bipolar is just a label of the symptoms. Not everyone will have all the same symptoms and considering your dad has it.. it seems you probably have something of that sort too. Don't look at it with a label.. it's a chemical imbalance in the brain causing these symptoms, it doesn't need a label unless you need to label it. I'm sorry your treatment isn't working, explain that to your doctor. Stay positive and I hope you find some relief.