Anxiety - depressed, agoraphobic, meds not working?

I used to be like you when I was around 11 and 12. I would feel like was dieing and I would have trouble breathing and witness severe pain in my chest like a heart attack or something. I hate a terrible fear of dieing that I would cry, and stop living. I was taken out of school for 2 months and my life was terrible. I eventually got fixed up. 2 years ago my dad who is in his late 40's got panic attacks again. ( he used to have them in his teens ) and he was hospitalized for it, it got really scary and it made me cry. There was one point when he came home where he heard the door bell ring and hid around the corner because he was scared, sounds funny, but it made me sad. It was only a person asking for donations to charity. I'm sixteen right now, and I'm starting to have panic attacks, depression and suicidal thoughts again, it sucks. Just when my life was going well. I guess my point is that you are not alone and that you should see someone for it, and get fixed up because that's what I plan to do soon, cuz i hate being like this! Oh and my dad was on meds and he still had panic attacks, it doesn't fix the problem but is suppose to help a little. And i understand what you mean about negativity and about seeing the world differently in this kind of state of mind. Last week my dad asked me to mow the lawn, and I thought about it for a moment and realized...why the F@&* should I mow the lawn if the damn grass is just going to grow back again, it's not like we use it for anything. It's kind of funny now that I think of it but, I do have a point. Hope all goes well :)